30 August
Started ACE (Accelerated Christian Education) training today! And I am LOVING it! More about it at the end of the week because I have a lot of homework and books to read! Praise the Lord so much for this opportunity
21 August28 August
Today was my khulu and gogo’s memorial service. Hearing stories from other people about their lives and how they impacted other people melted my heart. My grandparents gave their lives for Jesus and the ministry. They weren’t afraid to lose their lives in the world and because of that they have such a great testimony and legacy to leave behind. I was proud to stand there as their granddaughter. It got me thinking about what kind of legacy I would leave behind. Many people said the same things about my grandparents: they were spiritual mentors to many because they loved Jesus, people never left their home without a prayer & vegetables (they had a large vegetable garden), they gave of themselves tirelessly for the needs of others, they had a good marriage and they raised their children well. And I thought what will people say about me, when I’m gone?
I love Nichole Nordeman’s song “legacy.” If you’ve never heard it, I strongly urge you to listen to it. It’s good! In fact here’s a link for it! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pA5-wMCR3aQ&feature=related
27 August
A little 7 year old (we think) girl we got two weeks ago, has been bleeding since she came. Today I took her to a sexual abuse expert doctor. She had previously denied any abuse but when it was just me and her, I asked her again and she confessed that a man had abused her. The doctor however, after examining her, was convinced that there had been no abuse. We’re still unsure of what actually happened. But my heart broke for this little girl because she was in so much pain. How dare anyone do anything to such an innocent little girl! It makes me so mad!!! When will people learn that sexual abuse is not okay???
26 August
God, sometimes it’s easy for me to keep running in my own strength but I always get over tired and worn out. And this week I’ve been worn out. I haven’t been coming for my daily drink of eternal strength, or rather I have been coming but only walking away with a teaspoon-full instead of a bucket-full.
Today I renew my commitment to my mornings with You. My time with You is the most important part of my day and I don’t want to ever miss it. I want to continue to rise early to seek Your face but to do it with ALL my heart. I cannot do it in my own strength and I ask that You would strengthen me to not be monotonous in my quiet times but to allow You to rock my boat.
Oh and shhhh... but I might be able to do the ACE (Accelerated Christian Education) course!
Interceded for kids church and my sister and I continue trusting the Lord for wisdom & provision for monthly support.
25 August
God thank You for the day I had out at SJCV with Ashley (the Californian girl). She seemed to connect with the kids and they enjoyed her presence. Kids can sense a real person and when they start jumping on top of you when they’ve only known you for an hour, it’s because they feel comfortable and safe around you. They definitely felt that way around Ashley. It was beautiful to behold.
I’ve never thought of myself as musically gifted, but I taught the girls’ choir a song today and they loved and were singing it for the rest of the day! That blessed my soul!
24 August
“Waiting on God brings us to the end of our journey much faster than our feet.” Wait on the Lord Buhe and be of good courage. Sometimes we can wait on the Lord but we fail to be of good courage while we’re waiting. Wait on the Lord AND be of good courage.
“If you strive to gain, you’ll have to strive to maintain.” God I want You to maintain my lot. Thank You for giving the position You wanted me to have. I didn’t have to strive for it or even ask for it but You gave it to me and therefore I know You will maintain me in it.
Laziness is my pet peeve and there is so much laziness around me. Lord I want to able to motivate and empower people not to be lazy but to rise to their full potential. “Because of laziness the building decays and through idleness of hands the house leaks.” Ecc 10:18
I met a girl from California at youth today. It reminded me of my dear friends in California. I miss them. I thank the Lord so much for the solid, godly friends He’s placed in my life. And I lovelovelove that they’re from all over the world! I miss having my friends around me. But this is a season of loneliness and I’m glad for it because I can see what it’s working in me.
19 August
Today as I teach the O Level girls, may my love and care for them be the driving force. If they see that I care, they will care and do well.
Our first kid’s ministry meeting was today. God we need Your grace. Only by Your strength and by Your Spirit can we accomplish anything. Please give us vision, passion, compassion, excitement, diligence and excellence.
18 August
I invited a group of girls from SPCC youth group to come out to SJCV. It was a wonderful time even though the girls hadn’t prepared anything, God still worked despite their lack of planning. Their hearts were so open, willing, loving and compassionate towards the girls and I think that was more important than any teaching, drama or song they could have prepared.
“People don’t care what you have to say until they see that you care.”
Oh and by the way... I’m down to my last $50. I need a miracle!
17 August
I finally got a back light for my car! Praise the Lord! I never thought I’d get it and the most unlikely person sourced one for me!
“It’s okay to need other people’s help.”
16 August
I forgot how much I loved Science! I’ve been teaching the O Level girls Science to get them ready for their November exams. I love getting people to understand concepts and being a channel for someone to gain some knowledge. I guess I love teaching but it’s a great responsibility. Carrying, in your teaching and with your life, the ability to shape a child’s view of something/someone, is a responsibility of indescribable magnitude. God please equip me with everything I need to communicate concepts clearly and lovingly.
“Buhe, stop calculating.” – the Lord. I just want it all to make sense and fit perfectly together but Lord I know it can’t happen my way. You’re in control – supreme control and I surrender to Your control today. I’m done calculating and trying to figure stuff out for myself. I’m done calculating to see how much it will cost me to follow You. I’m done calculating how much it has already cost me to follow. GOD TODAY, I STOP CALCULATING.
During my time with the Lord, I felt Him saying this to me:
“Buhe, I love you. Enjoy my love. Rest in my love for you. You can never fully enjoy or experience My love until you accept it. I have a wonderful plan for your life and you just have to hold fast to me during this season. I know it’s hard and it’s going to get harder. But I love the sweetness this is bringing to our relationship. You’re learning to get out of the boat and walk on the water. Walk on the water.”
15 August14 August
I’ve been reading “Be Determined” by Wiersbe. It’s a commentary on the book of Nehemiah. It was interesting to read today how the enemy will use fear, discouragement and ridicule to keep me from doing what God has called me to do. There are many fears, discouragements and disappointments in my heart but Lord with that same heart I ask that You would help me not to give up but keep pressing toward the goal! I know the enemy is probably trying to discourage me from committing to YFC but I know that You’ve confirmed to me that this is Your will for me now and I will back down until You say so.
Lord please help me to be a blessing around the office. Strengthen me to encourage, exhort, enrich and motivate others.
11 August
A team came today from Australia to do some music with the girls at SJCV. It was wonderful seeing the girls in their element singing away and enjoying it! We all have different gifts and when we’re exercising the gift the Lord has given us; it will bring nothing but joy to us and to those around us. The team was blessed, the girls were blessed and I was blessed.
I spent sometime interceding for my country, my people and my friends and family all over the world. Oh the beauty and joy of being intercessors!
10 August
I had a dream last night that I was getting married. I was walking down the aisle and as I got to the altar, the person standing there was Jesus. It was one of those dreams that felt so real.
As much as I will often deny it or suppress it, I do have a desire to be married... some day. But I know the timing is not right yet. In fact I cannot even say for a fact that I will ever be married. Jesus might come back or I may die before that or it may not be God’s plan for me. And the challenge that came to my heart was, “Buhe, if you never married, would you still be completely satisfied in Me? Would you be satisfied to marry Me?” And I have to say with all my heart... I would be satisfied in Jesus. It would be hard - very hard to accept but if that was God’s will for me, then He obviously knows that that’s the best thing for me. The little girl fairy tales are quickly losing their steam and reality is setting in. But it’s not necessarily suppressing my desire but more like leaving it at the altar and waiting to pick up when God says so.
God confirmed in my heart to stay and join YFC. I’m excited about it all but I also realise that difficult days lie ahead. God I ask you to continue to build me into a woman of grace & integrity. May I always open my mouth with wisdom and may my primary goal always be to glorify You!
9 August
I went to Shalom for the annual youth camp and took some of the older girls from SJCV. It was such a blessed time in worship and in the Word. “Don’t be condemned by your weaknesses instead know your weaknesses but focus on developing your strengths.” If I don’t know or recognise my weaknesses I’m bound to fail.
Some of the girls from SJCV went up to be baptised in the Holy Spirit. What a precious, precious time it was.
